My interest in [redacted] isn't about wanting her, but about why she's not falling for me like others usually do.

The self-proclaimed social media experts, "Hmm... since you got your degree, and you know every fucking thing," would label me a narcissist. But honestly, it’s more of an ego thing than full-on narcissism.

I'm questioning why someone isn't reacting to me in a way I'm used to. It's about feeling validated through others' attention or affection. This ego-driven curiosity challenges my expectations, but it's not necessarily narcissistic. It would only be if I had a pattern of needing constant admiration or feeling entitled to others' affection.

Those who know me, especially you two reading this, know I don't play at being a celestial soloist— an introverted Virgo. I could adore you on Monday and act like we've never met on Tuesday.

“There is a delicate complexity to wanting deep connection when I crave it, and the freedom to retreat into solitude when I need space. It’s a constant negotiation with myself, balancing the desire for closeness with the need for independence.” - Brian TramueL

A delicate complexity… that might be the realest shit I ever wrote.

 I Remain,

A Celestial Soloist