Life Changes - Davina
/I wish someone would have told me that adulting is complete BS. I would love to go back to high school days, or even my college years, where I had no responsibilities, was broke as hell, but yet still managed to travel, enjoy fine dining, and just have more free time to enjoy life. I am currently in my early 30s, SINGLE AF and FNF, and just getting started in my field of study, and when I say I have no life. I LITERALLY have no life. When I’m not at work, I’m at home, mainly sleeping or catching up on my “programs” like the old lady I am, and when I’m not home I’m working my ass off only to be living paycheck to paycheck. These bills be adding up Ya’ll! Between this high ass rent, car note, car insurance, student loans, phone bill, utilities, internet, and all these damn streaming subscriptions, your girl be really out here thinking about how I can make a million dollars by tomorrow! Creating an Only Fans and having a sugar daddy sounds real promising right now. I’m just playing, but for real I wish someone would have warned me, that adulting isn’t as easy as it seems.
I remember in high school I couldn’t wait to graduate, move out the house and just be completely independent. Being an adult seemed like the best thing in the world. No curfew, No chores, and No rules, what a dream! I had a taste of that dream in college, especially when I could choose my class schedule, have the option to go to class, stay up all night, and party every weekend. I was out here living my best life, and still managed to graduate (just in case you were wondering). However, my expectations after graduation did not go as planned.
What was my expectations you ask? Same as everyone else’s, which was to get a high paying job right out of college (I’m talking at least 6 figures), own a house, get married, and have kids all before the age of 30. Yet here I am at age 31, soon to be 32, and have not met any of my expectations. Not to mention the fact that I get reminded of it constantly. Between family asking when I’m going to reproduce, and random people amazed that I’m not married at my age (yes random people amazed, mainly at work though), I kind of question myself as to whether I’m doing something wrong. Can I not get settled in my career first? Can I not get financially stable? Can I at least find someone worth getting married to, let alone have a baby by? Let me stop, because that a whole separate topic that needs to be addressed!
Needless to say, because my expectations aren’t met and these bills are piling up, I find adulting a complete waste of my time. No one should work this hard to be struggling and not enjoying life. Take me back to my youth where I was dependent and happy, versus now where I’m independent, overworked, underpaid, and stressed the F**k out!