TramueL, Brian

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Love, Undeserving Of

I had a signal reaction to hearing (for a third time) someone say that they believed they were not good enough for me.

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A whole me

There is NOT nothing I have been through or experienced where I believe myself to be above anyone, while I have a (very) strong sense of my lovability, capability, and worthiness I would never believe myself to be greater than. That signal reaction led me to really consider why. I believe in the Sun, the Moon, the Stars and shit - no, not the band or the book but the actual celestial bodies - so I looked to the sky to see if I could uncover the moral and intellectual crisis of our time

My Ego

“Although Virgo-Librans periodically need to indulge their sense of touch, they may appear removed or untouchable themselves, and may only allow physical contact at special times.”

After a zero to one hundred, real quick search on the innanets’ I found that quote, remember that context communicates as strongly as content;

“… they may appear removed or untouchable themselves and may only allow physical contact at special times.”

A short story starring me.

“Many born on the cusp are content to admire beauty from a distance, seeing it as a quality to be adored or worshiped from afar, rather than one to approach or possess.”

At this point, I’m now engaged in emotional calisthenics and counterweights have been attached to all of my feelings.

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I’ve made a great effort (lately) to listen to the subtext when people speak; checking their facts, feelings, values and opinions … so I believe I understand why someone would believe they are; the correct phrase is

Underserving of love

This is neither a boost to nor an attack on my ego but a mirror reflecting back,

In To Me See

Whew, that post

That whole post.


We all deserve to be loved.

We all deserve to be seen.

We all deserve reciprocity.

 

I remain