Truth & Honesty Imbued With Poetry

“Dirty water pooled beside the faded blooms of summer. I wet my toes. I knew better but I wet my feet. I knew better but I wet my legs. I knelt and wet my thighs. Dirty water warmed my skin against the cooling wind. I touched my cheeks. I knew better but I touched my lips. I knew better but I touched my eyelids. I touched my ears. Dirty water dried to muddy stains among the silk and cotton. I sat and prayed for rain.”

-September

I believe the author and I are on some Virgo-Libra Cusp type tip, because we always seem to be in tune with our thoughts.

“I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.”

I know what inspired this writing and we discussed that off line, but I was compelled to post it because it shared a common theme with a few of my latest post; self-nurturing, truth and honesty.

When its difficult for us to feel harmonious & peaceful, it’s usually a battle in our head. A battle between two negative brothers or sisters … aggression and passivity {My money is on them being sisters} These two generally play bad cop, good cop. Aggression comes in the form of a reprimand, imputing blame or guilt and harassment. We allow her unwarranted & irrational thinking because her sister passivity is a smooth talker and plays the role of good cop, she brings self-doubt, separation from self and the belief that we will not completely evolve.

Most of us figure it out, realizing it's really bad acting and we discover our true self, which is the realization of our goodness and our value. That self awareness is what allows us to live in harmony & to be at peace with our decisions and all of life.

Live Well,

Mr. "God, if I can’t have what I want, let me want what I have" TramueL

A Thought / Feeling Split

Have you really tried to understand?

No. Okay well why don't you try to mute dissent and turn arguments into conversations. ☚ Not a question ... this is advice.

Look outside your own world

We all get caught up secretly believing that our way is better than others, however,The Merciless God of Perfection doesn't want you to believe there are other ways of viewing things. ☚ Shout out to The One real GOD, his SON & their homeboy the HOLY GHOST cause' they are the only ones you should put your faith in.

Pay attention to the needs of others

Try to keep track of what's going on, be sensitive to telltale signs & don't take things for granted. Think constructively & work to improve relations.

Calm your nerves and center yourself

Don't stick stubbornly to your point of view, go ☠smoke or exercise or do that thing the we all like to do ☚ You scream, I scream, we all scream for ...

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Things That Go Bump in the Night

Can't sleep at night? Up at 3:30 a.m. blogging? Well me too. I'm up because of my inner demons.

We all know the feeling of struggling with our demons & sometimes it can feel like a losing battle. One problem is that people don't get enough understanding or clarity about what their demons consist of. It's hard to beat something when you can't clearly see. Inner demons are emotional conflicts.

I'm up cause' I've enslaved myself to my ideas for making life better for me and my folk. I'm in my own personal recession and it's this emotional conflict of having the exepctation that others will see me as a disapointment & add the fact that I worked until 1:00 a.m.

A person who is rich in many ways can still feel deeply deprived and dissatisfied. I'm seeing clearly the inner conflict, and beginning to undermine the power of the negative side of said conflict.

*A weakness for money does not imply power*

Colorful Dreamworld

Keep your eyes open & make more of an effort to see things as they are not as you want them to be.

Delicate Duality

As of late I've tended to fluctuate widely in mood *pause* (this post already sounds like a feminine moment) ... being easygoing one moment and full of what can be described as kind of moral indignation. Both are limiting since one of them represents too little judgement and the other too much. They also constitute a duality that imposes worry. I think I'm gonna have a period now for sure  

*Chanting* "realize that the truth is in the middle, seek it there"  "realize that the truth is in the middle, seek it there" "realize that the truth is in the middle, seek it there"

Sometimes I may compensate for imagined but expected difficulties while overlooking more concrete problem areas. {Mr.TramueL's Corollary: An expert is a person who avoids the small errors while sweeping on to the grand fallacy.} This may produce a conservative, even fearful attitude, which "deads" initiative and keeps any relationship from success, becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy.

That's right in case you missed it I'm talking about relationships but not just romantic relationships, this has affected all of my relationships (Family, Friends, Co-Workers & She)

Do as I say, not as I do:

Try to accept the whole package

Self-fulfilling prophecies can ensure *deadness*

Complaining waste energy

Now I'm off to take a shower to get the floral, night blooming jasmine, peach cranberry body spray smell off of me