“Peeling away, yet I’m compelled to stay, cherishing you from a place between drawing blood & the gentlest touch.” - Hangnail
Hanging on by a thread…
I've been active on Threads and I'm enjoying it so far. However, I haven't fully figured out how the algorithm works. It shows me a lot of content from local users in Charlotte, with many threads about food, traffic, dating, fitness, and life in Uptown.
Read MoreMy interest in [redacted] isn't about wanting her, but about why she's not falling for me like others usually do.
The self-proclaimed social media experts, "Hmm... since you got your degree, and you know every fucking thing," would label me a narcissist. But honestly, it’s more of an ego thing than full-on narcissism.
Read MoreI’ve been married twice, both times to a Virgo. Their quirks and classic traits have become my baseline. Eighteen years with one and over twenty with the other have shaped my entire adult life. If you asked me how a woman would act in any given scenario, my perspective would be undeniably influenced by my experiences with them…
Read MoreWhen your toxic traits are isolation and avoidance but your love language is physical touch and quality time, you tend to make up stories in your head.
A common criticism Virgo receives behind their back, more often dead in their face, is that of being nitpicky and critical. I'll come back to this but first... A Virgo is moving on up to a deluxe apartment 19 floors in the sky-eye-eye. Often cyclical, a Virgo will ask for help, and be critical of that help, thus causing a Virgo to (1) Do it themselves (2) Never ask for help again…
Read MoreI received a lot of private feedback on this sentence from my post,
"I could be a great boyfriend, partner, or husband except… I do NOT want to do the work."
Mostly you need to heal, you're hurt, and you need time feedback.
Read MoreAdopt a new perspective.
Right now it's easy to feel a sense of oneness with everyone around you. It's the result of an internal recalibration, rather than an external one. It doesn't have to be defined right now.
The title is pulled directly from my Co-Star Astrology daily update. We all have choices, and one of the largest benefits of astrology is the ability to understand ourselves better beyond for entertainment purposes only.
Read MoreOne common Virgo trait is the tendency to be introspective, additionally for me with Moon in Gemini, Moon square Mercury specifically (Science) … there is always a conflict between my head and my heart. My emotions telling me one thing and my mind telling me something else. The result is a see-saw effect: Emotional to the point of irrationality at one moment, and logical the next.
Read MoreThe first chilly morning of the Autumn season makes me reflect on all those summer days cruising (on foot) through the park to see who was playing ball. Remember the old folks used a term… “courting”? That term came from the days when one would sit in the courtyard of a southern home with an intended “sweetie”. Well, I guess the basketball court was a version of that.
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We’ve all been there; an event, a place or someone sharing a few choice words, they cause us to re:play the occurrence over & over in our heads. First thought always starts similar to this "I wish I would have responded ..." That thought never goes away. I believe we store it in our mental Rolodex so that we are able to draw on that experience in the event we find ourselves in the exact same place.This might be too much information for ya'll but it is relevant to my story. It's been a long time since I had a strong beat to step to. It started as a lack of opportunity for a dance partner who appreciated my rhythm, it has now shifted to improving my position and improving my routine before committing to a new partner. The last ten years have provided a strong beat to step to simply by turning over and giving that inviting tap & uttering those famous words "Baby? You sleep?" ... the shake & wake is no longer an option as Mr.TramueL is no longer a plus one. Music evolves over time but there is always one constant, it always provides a strong beat to step to, when the music stops you can only imagine the withdrawal your body has; lucid dreaming, thinking about dancing every two minutes and considering dance partners you would never imagine doing the two-step with. Next your mind takes you back and you start to re:member every possible dance partner you've had, wish you could have shared an experience with and then Boom! You start to visibly remember being asked to dance but didn't realize someone was trying to practice their dance moves, wanting you to elevate their feet in the air above your shoulders. This is where the phrase dancing on air gains its meaning & ya’ll know Mr.TramueL loves some feet. Judge me. That would have been a performance neither one of us would have forgotten. I Am Mr.TramueL, get like me.
re:trospect
Mr.TramueL and The TramueL Formerly Known As have been separated for a year, coincidentally almost the same length of time I've been without a dance hall queen. I've always connected with women easily, you know the BIG brother type scenario, cool to talk with, opining about life, all of it's ironic twist and how they may sometimes startle us.Side Note: I would hit. Where were we? Oh! ... I have a few girls that are friends. Platonic. So the connection I shared with "she" <--- We will use this in place of her name to protect the innocent and also me in case she ever reads my Blog. “She” and I had that type of relationship, I had been out of the game for almost 14 years so I didn’t know how to approach women or much less decipher if what "she" wanted from me involved more than talking on the phone, visiting each other or hanging out, it was all relative. I assumed she was being friendly and helping me through some things and I afforded her an opportunity as a willing conduit into the world of men.
the:chase
She: "Hey? What are you doing around five? I'm on your side of town & I thought I would stop by."
Me: "Not nothing, cool. I'm here."
She: "You have anything to drink?"
Me: "H2O & some Hi-C Fruit Punch"
She: "Boy, you so crazy! I'm talking about a real drink."
Me: "Oh, yeah I have some Vodka"
She: "Oh, okay. I really need a drink."
Me: "See you in a few"
the:scene
I'm chilling in the bedroom watching T.V. I know this seems player, however there was only one t.v. & it was in my bedroom she is sitting in a chair across from me. I'm totally oblivious to all of the signs she is displaying It is only in retrospect that I’m able to visibly replay & understand what was going on She takes her shoes off and complains about how much her feet hurt1 obvious that she wanted me to rub her feet she is looking at me like Brian if you don’t turn off that t.v., get off the bed and come get on me. I thought she was buzzed Then “she” begins to talk about dancing and things she’s never experienced, a bucket list of moves and routines no one has ever brought that level of movement to or out of her. Ding, ding, ding! Dude? Seriously? Me being naïve, I go into my spill about being passionate and demonstrative in dance, gave her all of the astrological associations of Virgo’s and dancing.
Blank stare. Blink. Blink.
the:end
I walked her to her car and she said good night.
“She” I didn’t know! Listen, listen, listen! If you’re ever on my side of town again …
Mr. “Sex is Fire, Celibacy is Water. Both can Purify” TramueL
