The two of you reading this know me well enough to understand that I’m not becoming an actual villain. I’m not abandoning my decency or planning to treat others poorly. What this means is that I’m done prioritizing the feelings, boundaries, and needs of others at the expense of my own…
Read MoreWhen I began to prioritize my health, all of the healths: emotional, social, spiritual, environmental, financial, occupational, intellectual, and my favorite sexual... I noticed that some people started to fill in the blanks with their ass umptions and narratives. & by some people, I mean women, some would "Lol, I'm just serious" me to death, referring to my structured lifestyle as having a team, suggesting I'm juggling multiple situationships. The reality? I'm just at home, focused on my goals, in bed by 8 in the PMs…
Read More“Peeling away, yet I’m compelled to stay, cherishing you from a place between drawing blood & the gentlest touch.” - Hangnail
Hanging on by a thread…
I've been active on Threads and I'm enjoying it so far. However, I haven't fully figured out how the algorithm works. It shows me a lot of content from local users in Charlotte, with many threads about food, traffic, dating, fitness, and life in Uptown.
Read MoreI’m a grown, fully autonomous, adult human man, and I am crushing hard on someone. It’s comical and feels very grade school—like, “Will you go with me? Circle one: Yes or No.”
Read MoreIn November 2020, I wrote a post titled “Love, Undeserving Of” It was a moment of reflection, prompted by someone telling me they didn’t feel good enough for me. I was confused, not because I thought I was above anyone, but because I’ve always held a deep sense of my own worthiness, my capability, and my right to be loved. As always, I went somewhere and 'sat down' to search for clarity and understanding regarding the root of this feeling, not just in others, but within myself.
Read More"A good relationship is more than just chemistry - it also has a lot to do with HISTORY, ANATOMY, PHYSICS and ACCOUNTING"
Read MoreI find it curious that we all believe in and desire peace in our relationships however men and women are constantly fighting on André 3000's innanet’ about the best way to achieve it.
In context of what modern women want from a man; Big bank, big dack, Uptown Condo, Million Dollar Home in Myers Park, drives a Brabus G-Wagon, writes poetry, draws, he's a thug, and a nerd, is lean like a runner, and strong like a weightlifter, he don't eat pork, but eats oysters, pays for hair and nails, buys flowers, pays all the bills, spends all his time with you, takes you to the Cheesecake Factory...
Read MoreA common unsolicited critique of me is that I Am quick to disappear and able to detach from a person, place, or thing. Random observations about nothing and yet everything over the past few weeks have me reconciling this critique.
I strive for equanimity as much as possible. I don't always succeed, I get angry or irritated like everyone else. How did I get to equanimity? We gotta go back to 1991, "Now That We Found Love" What are we gonna do with it?
That's Heavy Man…
Read MoreWhen your toxic traits are isolation and avoidance but your love language is physical touch and quality time, you tend to make up stories in your head.
A common criticism Virgo receives behind their back, more often dead in their face, is that of being nitpicky and critical. I'll come back to this but first... A Virgo is moving on up to a deluxe apartment 19 floors in the sky-eye-eye. Often cyclical, a Virgo will ask for help, and be critical of that help, thus causing a Virgo to (1) Do it themselves (2) Never ask for help again…
Read MoreI went home for lunch today and on my way down, I’m on the 25th floor, the elevator stops on the 23rd. There was a woman waiting, standing and talking when the doors opened (but not getting on)… and as the doors start to close she approaches, I do the fake reach to stop the doors from closing and she hops on…
Read MoreI took the week off from work without plans and tried to force myself to get up, get out and get something when all I needed was rest and introspection…
Read MoreWhy does this trigger people?
I silence mine because I don’t want to witness the end of time, shutting myself off to the uncertainty of whatever is going on /end
It’s not that deep. Focus modes automatically silences notifications; driving, personal, work, and etcetera.
A short story starring ME…
Read MoreThe theme in my relationships during the past few weeks is centered around losing. All of you are weird so my non-romantic relationships.
I’m single, tell your single aunties about me.
Read MoreBack in the days when I was a teenager. Before I had status and before I had a pager. You could find the Abstract listening to hip hop. My pops used to say, it reminded him of be-bop. I said, well daddy don't you know that things go in cycles. The way that Bobby Brown is just ampin like Michael. It's all expected, things are for the lookin. If you got the money, Quest is for the bookin’
Things do go in cycles. Summer is coming and I’m reminded of the top five boos of all time…
Read MoreI have photos of me framed and on display in my bedroom. Is this vanity? Don't answer, its rhetorical. No one is ever in my bedroom, so I stare at my photos until the answer comes to me.
Now look at me, look at me. How much vanity do you see…
Read MoreRandom Observation … about nothing, yet everything
Giving a genuine, kind compliment
I believe I talked this into reality because it was a matter of conversation over the weekend. After my morning workout I stopped by Tradarius Jenkins to grab some essentials. After I parked and made my way to the door I notice a woman putting bags in her car—
Read MoreAdopt a new perspective.
Right now it's easy to feel a sense of oneness with everyone around you. It's the result of an internal recalibration, rather than an external one. It doesn't have to be defined right now.
The title is pulled directly from my Co-Star Astrology daily update. We all have choices, and one of the largest benefits of astrology is the ability to understand ourselves better beyond for entertainment purposes only.
Read MoreSomeone asked me the other day if I were happy. In context I understand why. In a social media world of happiness theater, competition on happiness and not real happiness, but who could display it best online. I believe they genuinely wanted to know. especially seeing the changes in my life in real time over the past two years.
“Saying you are happy isn’t the same as being happy”
Read More“Falling in love” implies a descension, also a bit of risk, too. When we fall it is generally associated with something negative happening to us. I tripped and fell inside of a woman I just met and now she is carrying my baby. Bad meaning bad, not bad meaning good. In the curious case of falling in love however, we tend to glamorize and adore the fall.
Read MoreThe other day while having a discussion about Cash Rules Everything Around Me, CREAM get the money, dollar, dollar bill Y'all. It led to a familiar discussion that I’ve been having with greater than enough frequency lately, living souls being obsessed with making the greatest amount of money with the least possible effort.
I like money, but I’ve learned it cannot make you happy. In the words of the prolific rhymer Christopher George Latore Wallace, Mo Money Mo Problems. Also, I would sign up for a test to see if $500MM would indeed make me happy – it is a delicate duality to balance.
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