Monday Night Sensory Inputs

Monday Night Sensory Inputs

Cauliflower Tacos w/ Strawberry Mango Salsa, I taste them.

Peony, apricot, orange and bergamot, I smell her. 

House is still; no music, no tv, no kids laughing (or complaining), I hear the silence.

Eyes closed, I see The Future; the physical environment, who will be there, the sights and sounds. I see you. 

Feels like weight has been lifted; my arms, legs, back, chest, stomach... You feel me?

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Work Ethic

Work Ethic

True story; my life began to change the moment I grew a beard and started taking better care of myself. 

Mute your dissent

Also true, life became much easier when I began to place less value on material things and truly live within my means. At the time of this observation it wasn't a choice, rather something forced upon me. Workforce Reduction, translation = laid off. 

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Ego Formation

Ego Formation

According to Freud, our self-concept (our sense of ourselves, including our confidence, our pride, and our sense of attractiveness to others) stems from three sources:

  • The residue of our original primary narcissism, which never fully disappears.
  • Our fulfillment of the imagined expectations of our ideal ego [Example] Our sense of being virtuous.
  • Finally, the satisfaction we get when our love is returned to us.

Mr. TramueL's corollary; people need love, to be seen, heard, and understood.

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Good Tasting Medicine

Good Tasting Medicine

Caught up in a reverie.  One Summer in D.C., while playing in an abandonded pickup truck, I cut my left knee on an old, rusted hubcap. I'm horrible with time/age, I imagine I was five or six. I recall not being able to sleep at night. In part due to the pain but mostly by not being able to move/shift my body into a comfortable position.

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Home Away From Our Home

Home Away From Our Home

This past weekend I traveled from Charlotte to Roanoke, the city that raised me. My sister, her husband, their girls and Cooper drove from Georgia, scooped me up and we made the journey up through the mountains to my Aunt Jean's 75th (surprise) birthday party. It is truly an honor to God as she is (and has been) the matriarch of the family since my grandmother's passing. To put that into perspective, I was five.

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Belief & Logic

Belief & Logic

We have been taught to believe many things. Questioning those learned behaviors can be great for logical calisthenics. 

Sometimes.

Im here writing about nothing, journaling my thoughts at four-thirty in the AM for no apparent reason other than laughing to keep from crying at the biggest opportunity in my relationship with The Future...

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Motivation

Starting Weight: 322

Current Weight: 238

Target Weight: 225

One of my fitness applications asks “What is your motivation?” Outside of the obvious; looking good naked, health and vitality, I would say quality of life.

One of my goals for two thousand fourteen (Better Thinking) has been getting everyone onboard with living healthier. Eating went from zero to a hundred real quick, getting everyone to move (physically) has been less than. Excuses hold others back; time and energy man, time and energy.

I have full-time, part-time and side-time hustles, however I've dedicated myself to making time to Run. Lift. Crunch. everyday. Don't get bogged down in work, school and responsibilities. I have more energy, more focus and better quality of life because of not in-spite of 

“When we do more, we can do more.”

 

Five Things I Find Attractive in a Woman Now That I Am 40

Five Things I Find Attractive in a Woman Now That I Am 40

Man listen, I consider myself pretty smart & knowledgeable about a few things so while I’m open to others point of view I secretly feel that I Am always right, you know at least 99.9% of the time. What I’ve found is that’s not exactly accurate more like 99.94% and I have been blessed with some highly intelligent women that are skilled at not only not bruising my ego but also changing my point of view & I have a pretty BIG ego.

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The Week of Loss, Life, Lust & Love

Of Loss

I’m not an empath but this week has proven that we all are on some level, for most of us it is so low key that we aren’t aware of anyone else's feelings but our own. I’ve had friends lose their mother, a very special friend who’s mother had a heart attack and a close friend whose dearest friend suffered a stroke. Although I did not know any of them personally, in the moment you first hear, the initial shock leaves you stunned, numb to the huge surge of feelings. I never know how to respond, the most common phrases are void of sincerity to me. So here are my words. Sorrow serves as a reminder of the brevity of life.

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Attachment VS Detachment

Of Attachment

A feeling that binds one to a person, thing, cause, ideal, or the like; devotion; regard.

 

Of Detachment

Willingness to accept that you cannot change or control a person, place or thing.

Ability to maintain an emotional bond of love, concern and caring without the negative results of rescuing, enabling, fixing or controlling.

 

Attachment VS detachment, find balance.

I Am.

Forever Young, [Quotes] Unhealthy Relationships & Immaturity

Of Unhealthy Relationships

Unhealthy relationships are driven by the soul. Issues that have not been resolved. They will abort your destiny. Healthy relationships are led by the Spirit of God and will advance you.
— T. Brown

Of Immaturity

Immaturity is an enemy that will cause you to abort the seasons and timing of God. Following your soul will rob you of greatness. Healthy relationships prepare you for your next dimension.
— T. Brown

Forever Young, H. Rhine

Forever Young, H. Rhine

A Conversation With My Younger Self.

I had a talk with my younger self, but it didn't go the way you think it might. I didn't give her words of wisdom about not wasting time, seizing opportunities or living without fear. I didn't tell her NOT to pursue things with that troubled light skin boy or that mysterious and talented guy is really just a loser with a bushel of untapped potential he will never turn into anything. No. We didn't talk about any of that. 

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Forever Young, B. TramueL

Forever Young, B. TramueL

Life and Music 

Soundtrack of My Youth

I’ve expressed my love for music & ya’ll know I’m a bit kooky. I often relate things happening in my life to the music I am listening to. While it is not specific to the songs lyrics or meaning; a phrase, a verse or the hook may spark a thought.

Life set to a few memorable songs from my youth... 

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